Monday, July 07, 2008

Choices

As I begin this entry, I would like to make a disclaimer. This post is not a condemnation. This post is a statement. A statement of... not necessarily belief, but one of purpose.

My family was just here. They experienced everything with good attitudes, and in the end they reiterated their support for what I am doing. I appreciate that. It means a lot to me to know that my family is standing behind me. It gives me strength. However, I know that my mum worries about the path I have chosen. She worries about my safety, and she said as much. She also exerted a small amount of pressure to choose a safer option as regards my next step. I mentioned that I was thinking of two different options, and I was unsure of which to take. She said that I should choose B because it was "safer".

I understand her position, but I want to be clear. I did not choose this path because it was "safe". Safety has never been high on my list of priorities regarding my future (kind of odd for the girl who has never broken a single bone in her body, and thinks that extreme sports are for idiots). Neither has money (another thing someone mentioned when I told them what I wanted to do). There is no satisfaction in knowing that you sat at home and were "safe".

This is not to say that I am not seriously considering option B. There is something monumentally attractive about it (hot, running water anytime I want it comes to mind).

At least I know that returning to the good old US of A is not an option...

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